Outside school, I attend electric guitar lessons weekly, and we had a small concert to celebrate the new music studio and to let students have the opportunity to gain experiences from the real stage. This experience falls under the category of creativity. Last time, I have performed as a Cadenza member in school with another peer. However, this experience would challenge me because I am performing on my own. The electric guitar is a new instrument for me which I have just started learning for about half a year, thus it is even more nervous and difficult for me.
A few days before the performance, I got a fever and my health condition was not really well. Therefore, I was worried that I may not do well on the performance day, or I may not even be able to perform. However, on the performance day, I felt better and decided to go. My voice was still not in the best condition, but I decided that I would give it a try.
When I arrived, I was shocked because I did not expect the number of people coming to be that many. I was not feeling nervous before seeing this scene, but suddenly felt intended when I see the amount of audience watching.
The moments before and during the performance I could not actually comment very much because all my brain was about are just blank and nervousness. After the performance, I thought it was the most terrible performance that I have ever done. I was trying to finish the song and got off the stage. The audience was applauding, but I still felt that I did not do a good job.
Afterward, I listened to the recording, and it was actually not as bad as I thought. I realized that I have completed another performance, and I was happy to feel that sense of achievement. In addition, I feel like I should have enjoyed the song and the time on the stage more, so I would be more relaxed and comfortable. However, this is an experience. Reflecting back, I think that I should take this experience as an opportunity to learn and to prepare for the next performances in the future. For instance, I would like to investigate more methods of overcoming stage fright and becoming familiar with being on stage. Although I was feeling embarrassed right after the performance, now I think it was a good exercise for me just to gain experiences and practices the skill of being in front of the public. Next time, I would just believe in myself. Overall, it was a valuable experience and I see growth in myself from gaining experiences on stage.
