What can I say, a creation of the year for me, I’m still in awe how I pulled this off. Hours and days of work has finally paid off as this is the video I have currently spent the most time invested on compared to other videos uploaded to Youtube.
Some of the things done in here has never been done by me. I literally had to try being a risk taker because I was afraid my computer would fall off filming the “committing suicide” part. I wanted that part to be as real as it has been because that was 5th floor. Flashing back to that day I actually went to 6th floor roof, I’ve never been up there anymore because I’ve had some very sad memories up there (which is why I only went to 5th floor with the clothes)… I want the audience to know how much pain and how depressed I was that I actually was “committing” to die.
Using the lego pieces are also a new experience. I didn’t really use stop motion because I realize it’s not special if I use stop motion since I know so many others will use it too. It makes the movie lose uniqueness, and I want the audience to see this video in a new way because it’s my life. It is sticking into my shoes, and experiencing a few minutes of my life. Nobody else can understand this unless I explain this myself. Combined with papers, yeah I guess it made things unique and special.
I only used two lego pieces because I want that very special classmate to know this video is dedicated to that piece of memory we had together. To him, we both had ups and downs but if he sees this video he’ll know that one of the lego pieces is me, and the other is him. We both done some wrong things to each other but in the end we’re still very good friends to this day. To those ups and downs bro, thanks for all that ride, taught me a lot and gave me a belief to believe in, thank you.
The drawing parts in the video scenes was in fact a dauntless adventure for me. What came up as a imagination in my brain was actually put to use. The result was actually as expected (I was lucky Imovie didn’t lose the file or crash). I spent more than a few hours drawing those. What looked like a easy job was rather hard because this entire drawing scene took up every time I had in school,
I was making bonehead moves here and there (which forced retakes 2 and 3 every time…).I admit that it looked easy, it’s not. Believe me, try and edit those scenes, it’s difficult because Imovie had to sync the music with the speeds. It frustrates me because it took minutes to do so and it sometimes froze the computer (yeah the circle-ish rainbow color loading thing kept bugging me making this video)…
I wanted the audience to get the “draw my life” taste in this video. I wanted them to know what I felt and been through as I draw it myself on the papers. I only used black markers because that period was the lowest point of my life… It was all dark and shady, nothing good in there. I was going through a period of suffering, and I want the audience to see me draw that piece of memory myself.
I wanted to thank Sean for helping me film a little bit of scenes here and there. The video camera was supposed to be used for Ian and Linus’s film, but they were kind enough to help me, which I gladly used their assets to help improve the quality of the film. You see that at first I had them as friends, and then I became a outsider. That’s what happened to me in the school, I had friends, but then I felt alone. I want the audience to see it up close, me being alone at times and me having friends around me.
I didn’t realize how useful messenger was too. I had a few anonymous friends send me those text to do those simulations of “cyber” bullying. That was a moment in my life I still didn’t forget, and I just wanted the audience to see it up close and personal as if this appeared right in their phone. The email was pretty helpful too because I really did sent those emails but I trashed them so I was forced to write new ones (I would’ve saved them if I knew I could use them today haha). The audience deserves a chance to feel the sensation like me sitting in front of my computer typing those emails to the counselor, and that period of my life that I would never forget.
Hopefully all of these new techniques could reach their intended effect. All I wanted is for the audience to get those experience from me, and know why I hold this belief about treating people. The intended effect is to experience this part of my life that formulated my belief. I hope audiences can like it, and thanks for reading this post. You think you know suffering? Try watching that video and see how bad that experience was for me. Stick your feet in my shoes for about 5 minutes and find out why.
I’ve never filmed scenes of me drawing and then putting and editing them together. I really tried my best effort because it’s rather difficult when you’re putting an imagination into reality. I suppose, the video still is nice, and it’s also a new experience for me. I hope you guys enjoy it, and please excuse my lack of video skills because this is really a new experience for me.