It felt like as if I were the only person in this ugly world, or scientifically, a chaotic destruction of astronomy or geography has dominated this beautiful planet, and me, as an isolated and hated individual, had been thrown into an unexplored ruin. Where Am I?
I was in a huge house, haunted probably, but certainly it was a mansion. Piles of books were on a rectangular table, so possibly I was and remains erudite. I had studied and studied for who knows how long that the effect of dehydration started, and suddenly I recalled my body hasn’t absorbed a single drip of hydro since mourning, it was midnight already, I was desperate to get a glass of water; thus I moved slowly to the faucet, but unexpectedly an object tripped me. Succumbing to the gravity, I fell down to the horizon; simultaneously, an agonising pain was made by the disliking floor, followed by crimson liquid…. which overwhelmed myself.
Fortunately, I was alive with lacerations cured, which might be a miracle when no medical treatment had been applied. I stood up and walked toward the faucet to clean up myself and the floor, then I went to bed to alleviate exhaustion. Still wondering where I am.
It was an endless night for me- my brain was not able to take consideration of a single fact, nor a simple mathematic. Fresh air was all around my huge body, but somehow it malfunctioned my cardio, making me suffocated. In spite of inability of thinking, mountains of pasts stroke my tiny and currently useless brain, thus I remembered nothing; I tried to end my consciousness by staring at the darkness, and after several attempts, I did….
But that annoying question comes again- where am I? The Earth might not be an option. Then where could I be?
I felt the breeze of a lovely place- undoubtedly, a natural, undeveloped, unexplored, and “unimperfect” community, or kingdom. Again I was thrown into a place without a trace of humanity with fruits everywhere, endless mountains everywhere, spectacular waterfalls everywhere, blue skies everywhere, and white clouds everywhere. The world was smiling to me! And it was really clear that the question will not bother me anymore because I could live here for eternity. I COULD LIVE HERE FOR ETERNITY.
Nonetheless, it will, and is more painful in most people’s opinions.
It has approximately been three days that I stayed in the “paradise,” where I have been fed up by abundant resources that I was not even capable of moving. I almost forgot the problem I have been inquiring, enchanted by everything here. The night was bright due to the shininess of Sirius, as well as other constellations, so I closed my eyes and ended the brightness…
It was a nightmare for me, again in a suffocated place. It was similar to my mansion, except I have seen mechanics on my every single part of body. My room was white, not giving me a sense of energy or cleanliness however, hearing a unfamiliar sound outside of this room, apparently talking about me….
WHAT ABOUT ME?
A rat-like man touched my blanket-covered stomach, and then he said the most astonishing news I have ever heard…. “this is your last 150 seconds of life, you will spend 130 seconds to “read” everything that we have done to you, and twenty seconds to have your last will said…..” Although I pretended to be unsurprised, disbelief has shown on my face….
“No matter how shocking the story was, please be silent until your finality, when your are allowed to indicate your words,” he said.
He gave me two letters and asked me to open the red one. The letter contained a plethora of words…
By: Carlin Innesta
To: Ian Huang
7/23/15 11:20
Your Astonishing Adventure
As you’ve known right now, you have only ten minutes left, thus I am not gonna hide anything. You’re a highly intelligent human being, a man who explores interaction of cerebral nerves, a man who desperately wants to find a way to create delusions autonomously for a purpose, which would be a scientific breakthrough if it would happen. However, sarcastically, when you were exploring that, you suffered from amnesia, a disease that you know more than anyone else; a disease of your profession. Knowing that memories would be losing everyday, you used yourself as a guinea pig, which was extraordinarily dauntless. I, as a most threatening competitor of yours, really admired your sacrifice to science; the spirit of your abnegation toward experimentation would definitely be recognised by history and followed by future humanity.
You, Ian, had used some chemical reactions in order for you to achieve your ultimate purpose. You first dreamed of a day that you were almost finished with the thesis on autonomous delusions and prepared to present tomorrow; that haunted mansion was your home, that you worked on it for 15 hours without moving. However, you fell down and lost the majority of your memories after medical treatments. For the paradise in your dream, it was just a three-day trip to New Zealand, which had been the most interesting activity you’ve had in your whole life. You had basically done nothing other than science, so that’s unique in your life.
This whole experiment was done by me, Carlin Innesta, due to your trust of my ability and my admiration toward you; therefore, you gave me all the papers regarding this subject prior to the execution, and I, fortunately, achieved your final hope, your most important purpose, in your life….
You had told me that you never cared about the past, but for this time, you do or did. So Ian, you could probably guess it by now, your purpose of this delusion was—– TO LET YOU REMEMBER THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR LIFE, AND TO DIE AFTER THAT…. which is a side effect of conducting autonomous illusions.
We have calculated you reading speed, so mathematically, you still have 35 seconds of life. After reading following sentences, you will have 23 seconds of it.
— History will recognise your ultimate sacrifice to science, and to our nation, and Your achievements will be perfectly manipulated for further explorations, and real-life application.
Best Regards
Carlin Innesta
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I put this letter on the table next to me, and opened the other blank letter to write my last words, which exactly took me three seconds.. I was fearless now.
I wrote “Sometimes, It’s Better To Die With Glory Than To Survive With Dull. More importantly, A GRATEFUL MAN HAS NO FEAR TO DIE FOR A PURPOSE; A SUCCESSFUL SCIENTIST HAS NO FEAR TO DIE FOR AN EXPLORATION.”
I took my last breath, deep, and said “I..’ve..achi…eved…bo…th…..of……’em…no regrets…. I…’m fu….lfill…ed…no…t…..su…b…mer….ge….d……”
Finally, I smiled as I went to the real Paradise….
Apparently, it was not a problem of “where am I,” but a matter of accomplished life or goalless one. Sometimes, we are so fear of death that we forget the ultimate purpose in our life. In majority’s opinions, death is more painful than a useless life; however, frankly speaking, useless life is just wasting your time in the “real Paradise”!!!